My Second Semester

I got this blogging urge out of no where out of sudden!! haha and yes I miss blogging. It's just that sometimes blogging requires time to plan a blog post nicely so ahh forget it. (So I normally end up starting watching another series)

Second semester with Daniel here does make A LOT A LOT OF DIFFERENCE!!! No more staying up the whole night and I get to sleep early. I finally feel being his girlfriend again. HEE Despite the small arguements due to different lifestyle in the beginning of the semester, everything else has been great. Thanks a lot for taking care of me! I hope you felt that I did take care of you too. haha

Somehow I felt that studies for this semester is not that stressful compared to last semester. I guess it is definitely due to the WONDERFUL timetable. No more 8-7 on Mondays, and I get 3 afternoons off! Well that is just how I FELT. Both my mid-semester tests results are horrible and I must buckup. Finals is HERE. ARGH. And I kept reminding myself of how disappointed was Papa and Mummy when they found out my end of semester results last semester. Seriously Lim Yuanshuang, your father pay RM100,000 a year for you to get results like this?! Ok so, I will STOP playing hard and start study as hard as I can, except for my first day of period. haha! That must be off day.

I still miss home as much as I do last semester. Firstly I miss having my family walking around the house everyday and whats the second? (like DUH.. it's me.) FOOD LA! I felt that nowadays I don't just miss food. I'm GREEDY. Oh gosh, the more I tell myself to stop thinking the worse it gets. Believe me or not, I've got a few Insomnia cause I spend the whole night thinking of Malaysia food and the possibility of me cooking it here myself. THIS IS SO WRONG. Needs to stop allowing food conquer my mind at wrong times!

Lost of GongGong allowed me to get a 'free trip' back home in September. How're you GongGong? Being such a great man, you'll stay in heaven forever and don't need to get into a new life being a human again, I know. Rest in peace, I really miss your presence. Will take care of mummy, that's my responsibility!

On the special day of 10/10/10, I spent my day doing something I've been looking towards long ago. Something to be kept in memory forever. :)

Finals is in less than a month time. and to anybody who might even pop in and read before I get back, I'll be reaching home again on 26th November. (I love surprises :D) hahaha it's gonna be a great summer holiday back AT HOME, THE PLACE I LOVE THE MOST. I want to hang out as much as I can with my family and friends, and hopefully I get to meet Daniel at least once a week. haha

I'm good! :D

Thanks for treating me nice nice food so often! hehe <3

STUDY.HARD.STUDY.HARD.STUDY.HARD!

Exposed

My blog is exposed!!!!

One of my coursemate told me that she read my blog. 0.0 NOT.GOOD.!!!
Luckily she is a Malaysian so maybe not that bad. But still! I have never thought of letting anybody around Uni know about my blog!!

Then how?! Should I lock up my blog? I don't feel like doing so because I don't mind anybody hoping in and out of my blog once in a while. But this is the only place left I rely on to pour my stories and I really don't mind any of my friends to read my blog. Macam mana la?!

I always thought assignment is good because it help lighten the burden of having 100% exam based but why can't I just concentrate on doing it? I'm still feeling distracted quite badly especially during the night time.

I have not walk out of it yet but I have been smiling, to everybody and myself. :)

Growing up is not fun.

Countdown to the ultimatum: 30days

30 days to Love

Exactly one month left!!!


Papa was telling me, "actually ah, you go there not very long only what. 4 months plus only mah. Who study overseas will go back so often one?" AIYOR. 4 MONTHS ALSO VERY LONG OKAY!


I WANT TO KISS MALAYSIA LAND,
Malaysia Air,
Malaysia Sun,
My Papa Mummy Tingting Shenshen and Beibei!!


The most important one is of course buying food AS I LIKE. Walao! In Malaysia unless its some super high class meal where I definitely can't afford, if not I would definitely buy already! Over here, its like a piece of doughnut, a piece of pie, cost $3-4 also I cannot buy cause it would be at least RM10 after convert. I'm super fine with windows shopping. but window food?! Its a big torture. It's like i see someone selling jagung on the street also I can only quietly walk pass it... SHO SHADD....


Things at home: I miss my car my bed my attached toilet which can be as luxury as my bedroom my 42" lcd tv my motorbike my TORTOISES my garden my piano my proper kitchen my every single thing at home.


I just miss my life in Malaysia. Don't know what else to say, so yeah, I'm super looking forward to go back home. :) Hopefully my father won't drag me to work and I need to quarrel with him over that again, I don't want to get dragged and whacked to wake up for work. IT'S HOLIDAY! Oh ya, and not to forget I get to take leave from washing my own cloths too.^^ YES I KNOW I'M PAMPERED. Bluek!

There is also something which I told myself that I MUST change after I reach home. MY BADLY POLLUTED MANGLISH BY SINGLISH!!! Ohmygosh, everybody, please correct me everytime you feel like "why her slang so weird one arr". Please please! If not my english will be totally Singlish already. haha but anyway, I've finally passed the having problems with Singaporeans part because they really treated me very nice and care for me a lot. I don't want to kutuk my friends like that. But I'll stay myself away from some Singaporean typically attitude which I don't know how to describe, plus the fact that they hate Malaysia so much, SIGH. Malaysia will NEVER have a war with them larrrrr...

Interestingly I also found out something, they said "Singaporean guys like to date Malaysia girls because they're more homely and more lovely. Malaysian girls like to date Singaporeans guys because Singaporean guys more charming,(he was saying they more kiasu so they will be more successful something like that)" ERRR I agree with Malaysia girls very lovely and homely well of course we are. :) but then, wow at least my daddy is charming enough as a Malaysia man! hahaha



Oh and I wonder what will the high school bunch gonna do too~! Not to forget, the not confirmed but hopefully will be confirmed BBQ party with Switzerland Twinkle Star!!!


Dear home, I'm coming back. I miss you, you, you, you, you, you................................

Depression

I finally realise, I have not been happy for a while.
I've been trying to suit myself just for the only relationship I had in the past. The feeling of disappointment, stress and questioning myself almost everyday when he still wasn't satisfied with me. Why am I treating myself this way? Why am I losing myself for a guy? I kept telling myself, it's time to love myself more, just give in until the maximum I can do it. but, whenever I'm halfway caught in the relationship, why am I not thinking of that? loving myself more? What I thought was, "no, he is not happy, I have to stop this" I am really not happy but I try my best to fake a smile almost everyday. I don't get comforts, and I get more complaints and scoldings and teasings. Although I knew don't-know-how-long-ago that who cares if I place him as the most important person in life after family. because even if he knows it, when I said I'm sad, all I get are sentences thats just telling me "dai sei, who ask you love me so much?" According to him, I deserve all these. So what am I doing now?

All kinds of things we experience in life, I'm sure it will affect our emotions. When we're emotionally affected, daily life affected, RIGHT? My studies is being affected quite badly, and now I'm really dying. he said: "I'm not like you, who ask you get affected so easily? It's not my fault that you can't study, because you don't know how to weigh your own priorities in life" Ok, so whatever problems I face, if I ever sound it to someone I trusted the most in life, this is what I get, I get more depression.

I REALLY NEED HELP. but whoever that can help me, after I tell how depressed am I, how can they help? It is still up to me in the end. I'm grateful, because everyone around me are offering themselves to help me get through it. Thank you.

I'm feeling very pressured. The fact that if I fail any units, it means I failed the whole year and I will have to waste another RM100k provided papa allow me to do so. Being below average for EVERY SINGLE TEST, EVERY SINGLE ASSIGNMENT is something abnormal to me. I don't mind being the last, but I have to be at least among average. Everyone around me are so good, and it made me feel very stupid, that I'm just plain spoiled brat that because my father can afford to support me for overseas studies that I'm here. Who am I if I'm only given a chance to study local?

I'm weird. So what? but I really can't study in a pressuring environment. I feel very, very pressured. and the more I feel pressure, the more I can't take it. I just can't study. Everytime when I tell myself, this time I'm going to be good. Turns out, I'm just a person below average as usual.

I may not be in total depression, because everytime I see my friends I never fail to smile and I still behave normally. Meanwhile, there will be some weird feeling, someone squeezing my heart. Weird? Yes I'm weird as usual haha. but everytime I talk to him, why am I feeling so pressured as usual? The feeling that I'll get teased and told that I've always been a fool and dramatic because I love to control one's life. Seriously need more determination to cut off everything, forget about hoping for a change. Because of him, I've always been told that I'm not someone worth loving and no one will ever understand how degraded I felt.

I hope I'm not in real depression but I feel that my life is not right, as in emotionally.
I cry when I see how caring and loving other couples can be,
I cry when I think of how hard my dad worked hard for the family that I really want to prove him my results, because he will feel that all his hard work paid off,
I cry when I have the thought that if I fail, how sad will he be, yet continue supporting me in life,
I cry when my mum love me so much yet she has to go through such torture for so many times,
I cry everytime I imagine how happy will my brother and sisters be when they see me,
I cry when I know I'm needed in my family and only my family, not him,
I cry when I realise how much effort I wasted and the tease I get in the end........

I don't see sunshine. am I very far away? Why is everything negative in my mind? What should I do?

Shuang doesn't like to be lonely......

Easter Break

During the week before Easter break, all the lecturers always end the lecture by saying "OK that's all for today and enjoy your 'Easter break' ". Why do they need to put their fingers up when they say Easter break?!

NOW I KNOW. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A STUDY BREAK!!

I love complaining so I'm complaining to myself here (in a way) meanwhile also complaining to lots of other people outside! =p I have:

4 assignments coming up, including 1 case report, 3 essays and 1 15-pages assignment;

4 major tests;

2 lab tests;

*AAAHHHHHH*

and I 'fully equipped' my holiday with lots and lots and LOTS of entertainments instead of studying!! gahhh... I wrote a whole long list of food-to-be-eaten during the holiday but not things-to-study. stewpid. As if studying is such an easy-pisy thing to do.

I finally feel the pressure of having SOOO many things to study while aiming high scores and totally cannot afford to fail any single unit! (I fail one unit have to repeat whole year okay~)

So! Procrastinate less and study efficiently. Boleh tak? Definitely Boleh! :) I love myself. :D

Not to forget I had lots of fun during the holiday too! :)

Human Cadavers

A memorable experience in life. at least, in my life.

I remember ALMOST gave up taking medicine because of this. Too bad I love being in medical field that I know I've no choice.

When the course coordinator introduced us and even arranged a tutorial just to let us be prepared with the session, I was beyond nervous. I'm so worried that what if I couldn't take it and I gave up my course? Luckily I also have friends who are also as scared as me so we were together before we enter.

The night before, I COULDN'T SLEEP!! Haih useless sial.. I wasn't thattt worried because I didn't think about it much, but I just can't sleep. apa laaa... Thanks for Mummy who called and tried to comfort me and give me some encouragements and advice to face what I think was such a big challenge. As a Buddhist, yes I even chanted and chanted to make myself calm down. DON'T LAUGH nothing wrong to be nervous ok! haha

So after I enter, first thing that came into my mind. CHEHH... Why? I feel cheated. STUPID MOVIES!!! I seriously don't quite understand why must they make the room so dark in movies. Come on, the one I entered, it was even brighter than in a normal laboratory lah! Then, while I was queing up waiting for my turn to take a glove, I saw other people opening up the specimens and there goes my first sight of looking at human cadavers.

It was so much much much better than I thought it will be. Can you imagine, the one who was the most nervous among all, was the FIRST to touch? LOL but well, these people donated us the body to improve what we have now, hoping that we, as the new generation will always benefit from what they did and serving the community again. I'm now a university student and I've chosen this. :)

So I was telling myself, be mature and appreciate them! It was an amazing experience. Really. and more to come! haha

I'm in Big Trouble

Hello!! I love you bloggie, the only place left without Singaporeans in my life.

I'm in big trouble.because.I'm so unhealthy!!

I feel sick. My life is a routine. The very unhealthy type. I live in a 6m x 4m cubicle everyday.

My life: Wake up>>go classes>>quick lunch and nap if its a 2 hrs break>>class>>reach home, SLEEP!!>>wake up,dinner time>>reach room>>facebook/sleep again>>oh shit have to study(when it is already 1130pm)>>sleep at 4am.

OMG.. other than going for classes, my life is sleep & eat ONLY!! Why do I tend to sleep sooo much?? Life is so sien. Despite the fact that I've lots of friends out there, I know they care for me a lot, but I just don't feel home with them. Probably because they're always talking about Singapore Singapore Singapore.... So sometimes I choose to just stay in my room, hoping the internet will help. Well it does at times but not very much anyway. So when I feel sooo sien, I continue to lie down on the bed and sleep AGAIN!!

I really have been sleeping too much. I have so many revisions to do and yet I'm not studying. Just can't make myself sit down and study. I'm getting the SPM and A-levels A2 feeling where i really want to study but I just can't make myself study. And I got super bad results for these 2 major exams.. Please, I cannot afford to see the disappointed face on my parents again. I need to study but HOW?!

I've a super big assignment due on 1st of April, and someone like me who never had assignment in my life, look what I'm doing now. DOING NOTHING! I'm so demotivated because I don't have the powerful vocabulary that everybody else have, not even to the standard level of it. Worse still, essay is never my thing. No matter what language is it, I HATE ESSAYS! Now, you want me to crap for 1000 words. Together with the plagirism thingy, haih how would I know what to use and what I shouldn't? Then, I've to do research in a limited databases where most of the articles I find it useful, they don't have the full text online! grr...

Another thing, with such a unhealthy life, living only in the small room without good ventilation, I didn't go for any sports either. I've got free membership for gym in university but I'm not even using it when other people need to pay over a thousand ringgit to use it. So I don't go for sports, I sleep more than half a day, and I live in the small cubicle without good ventilation (if open window you can see all the dusts on my bed). and what more. Since I'm a food lover, I crave for maggi mee SOO OFTEN! ahh.. I feel I'm no better than a smoker now.

I need motivation and I need a healthier life. Grow up Shuang. Don't sleep and ruin your life. sigh..

p/s: Weida if you happen to read this, too bad you're the only Singaporean reader who knows about my blog. Bear with me and forgive me if you feel offended. :)

The Freaking Weather

Funny. I actually dedicate a post just to talk about the *ggrrrrrr* weather over here.

The FREAKING Australia weather IS KILLING MEEEE.

I don't care if the whole Australia is having the same weather, but ITS JUST SO BAD. I'm now very ugly because all my freckles are out everywhere around my face and the sun made my whole body so dark now.

If you're complaining how hot is Malaysia, I can assure you. As a Malaysian who lived in Malaysia for the past 18 years, Malaysia sun is just so kind and lovely! Since last week, this stupid heatwave came and I've finally experienced 42 degree Celcius of weather. PLUS, with the low humid over here, you don't sweat much but all you can feel is PAIN! I was rushing around the university for classes. Imagine, it was so hot that I can't even motivate myself to walk faster. The moment I was exposed to sun, even under the shade, I feel the pain on my body, especially on my hand!

It is so hot that even if I put my sunglasses on, I felt that the region enclosed by the sunglasses is SO HOT which didn't make much difference. Parts of my body exposed to sun: VERY PAINFUL for every second. And it lasts even until an hour even after you enter somewhere with aircon!! and for parts of body not exposed to sun: the heat will make you feel like stripping on the road. Worse part is! Even if you strip, and your body is exposed to the sun, it is worse so it makes no difference!!!
Even stripping and being naked can't help. goshhhhh

I had so many nights which I can't sleep all thanks to the torturing weather. I thought it was just me, but no. All my friends had that. Sweating non stop during the night! I made my fan stand right infront of me but it only helped abittt. The next morning we wake up, whole body is soaked with sweat. I seriously don't understand why is air con so uncommon over here. Everyone need it!

My friend checked weather forecast today. Guess what. The humidity is only 12%! How to survive macam ini.... no matter how hot it is in Malaysia, at least we sweat. Once we reach home, stand under the fan, on the aircon to the maximum fan and lowest temperature, in 15 minutes time we'll feel so much better. Here, NO AIR CON!!! I only have the standing fan in my room and the maximum speed is '3'. To get rid of the sticky body, just take a shower and come out continue staying in the cooling room and we're feeling so relaxed. HERE?! The moment I put my cloths on I start sweating. because even the toilet is hot! aaahhhhhh.......... I can't stand bathing with cold water, even if it was very hot, I still take hot water to bath. Today, Perth made me break my record, I forced myself to bath with cold water even with the presence of hot water. Owh I don't like you Aussie sun.

The first 2 weeks when I first came, the weather was so sweet. Windy with low temperature all the time but you don't really feel cold. All of us who are so new to here was thinking "Not bad, Perth has good weather!"
Perth cheated our feelings. It betrayed us.

So, after complaining so much about the hot weather, I hope I will love the ICE weather during winter. (which I know I will complain as much as I did) haha :)

University student!

Two days ago, something came across my mind and I suddenly felt that, wow.. this is such a long way. I'm finally a university student!! Ten years ago when I'm always-shorter-than-everybody, whenever I look up and see any university student standing beside me, somehow I feel that, wahhh can I even get into a university?? hahaha *dumb*

Now, walking towards the clock tower of the university everyday as a student, I had the feeling "wow I made it!". hard work paid off when I sacrificed lots of family outings for my A-levels and stay at home facing those black ants just to at least get into the course I want. Of course, not forgetting being VERY grateful for having parent who also worked super hard since young (definitely harder than me haha) to achieve what they have today and being able to afford my fees over here.

I had a love in first sight with UWA and yes love in first sight got no explanations right. lol I have no idea how many people I know got into a university they really wanted but to me, I'm overwhelmed and happy to walk into my classes everyday. I still in the condition of "I can't believe it" at times. haha Hope I'm happy this way for the rest of my 4 years over here!

Back in Malaysia, I always get the typical ~look~ when I said I will be studying in Perth. Seriously, I don't see anything bad to study in a quiet city. Well other than no supper at night, I have no other complains. Oh and guess what, the city centre is good and big enough. If you can walk through every street of it and still have no complaints on foot aches or whatever, you're really a marathon runner! It is not thaaattt small. Up till now, I have never walk around the whole city before.

People always say lots of Malaysians go Australia. I don't really feel so, because my social net is 98% Singaporeans!! Where are the Malaysians?! Now that I'm here, instead of improving my english and learn some angmoh slang, I need to learn Singlish too. Don't worry, I almost have word of the day for everyday. haha lets just hope I'm still a Malaysian when I go back. Together with my laass and mahhss and merrrss and arrs. If you feel that I turn into Singaporean-ish, must correct me okay!! LOL

I wouldn't say I've fully adapted to everything here, but other than homesick malaysian-foodsick and lovesick, I'm also having NAMESICK!!! ahhhh I always write my name as Lim Yuanshuang. But now?? Yuanshuang Lim. ugly and not nice at all. When I check my letters in the mail box, I will tend to look for Lim Yuanshuang instead of Yuanshuang Lim which slows down my speed A LOT.

By the way, my timetable is quite packed, worse than medicine students. *urgh* Guess what, I have 8am-7pm classes on alternate Mondays!!!! Even if I dont have lab, its still 8-5pm. zzz trying to be consistent with my studies from the first week. Really hope I can do it.

4 years isn't that far away. Graduation isn't that far away. Being a certified podiatrist isn't that far away too!! keke

曾几何时的我们。

曾几何时，我们的距离，那么遥远；
曾几何时，你对我的关心，那么敷衍；
曾几何时，我的感受，你不再加以理会；
曾几何时，我成为你生活的阻碍；
曾几何时，你竟然利用我们多年互相的信任，来达到你所要的喜悦；
曾几何时，我所受的伤害，对你而言，只是件小事；
曾几何时，我不再成为你心目中的第一位；
曾几何时，与朋友之间相比，我远远不过于他们；
曾几何时，哭，不足以代表你对我的伤害有多深；
曾几何时，我为了跟上你的改变而做出的牺牲，变得那么的无谓；
曾几何时，忍让你对我的伤害，成为每天必做的事；
曾几何时，我竟然不埋怨你对我的敷衍，傻傻地睁一只眼，闭一只眼地爱下去；
曾几何时，我的言语，非常幼稚，根本帮不上任何忙；
曾几何时，我的话永远是废话，你永远把它当耳边风；
曾几何时，我会想象在我忍无可忍你对我的伤害的时候，对你所说的话，对你所做的事；
曾几何时，一句我爱你；变成口头禅而已；
曾几何时，你的一句我爱你，让我听了毛骨悚然，而不是甜言蜜语；
曾几何时，在我告诉你“我相信你”时，需要仔细地考虑清楚。
曾几何时，我劝自己不再被爱以后，狠心地离开；

从前，我可以不顾一切地为你牺牲，不顾一切地相信你。在我心中，有你在身边，我觉得很温暖、很欣慰。为了你，我不惜一切代价，也只因为我爱你、我信任你。因为你，我知道我失去了友情和亲情，我从来没有埋怨过。

全都是因为，我没有想过你竟然不会珍惜我！不管你的解释是什么，难道只要有道理你就没有错吗？我的感受，一定是我多心吗？

你敷衍我，不尊重我，我始终没有离开你。

这五年以来，我对你的牺牲，你觉得是必然的吗？你所谓“开玩笑”的每一句话，你确定我从来不介意吗？

多年累积的感情，虽然我知道已经不再稳定，但是就算要结束，也不要存有怨恨。因为怨恨，会带来痛苦、带来寂寞的。我努力地隐藏着你伤害我的痛苦，只希望一切会美好的结束。毕竟互相信任那么多年，如果有需要，还是能够帮助对方。然而，我勉强的微笑，你把它当成威胁。我挣扎要告诉自己一定要离开你的时候，你知道需要多大的勇气吗？我需要朋友的支持，既然你不再理会我的感受，为什么要批评朋友给我的意见！那些不是“小动作”，是我需要的鼓励！在我觉得伤心绝顶的时候，你竟然还怪罪我说我把你和她们之间变得很尴尬，你知道你有多过分吗？！！

到最后，竟然还是需要告诉你我恨你。为什么？是，我恨你，因为你害我盲目地相信你还会全心全意地爱我，重新整理现在杂乱的生活。你一而再，再而三地利用我对你的信任，打击我对这份感情满满的信心。

既然我已经很明确地告诉你我那破碎的心，自然地你恨恨地破碎了我们要永远在一起的梦想。

戴毅永，我感谢你曾经给我的爱，但是我真的不想活在不怪你，而是每天怪罪自己的日子里。我怪罪自己每件事都从你的角度想，却忘了自己有多么的不开心。

爱或被爱，我选择被爱。可以吗？

Looking Back 2009

This blog is created only during end of 2008, but its my first time making this kind of post in my own blog! I guess its good, because all my pictures are filed up and it is going to take up lots of time to go through all the pictures.

So this summary thing is good! keke


January:
1) I was vomitting LIKE HELL, didn't even enjoy my trip to Koh Samui because what I did during the trip was vomit, and only vomit. I was so stressed up with the going-to-be-released results as it would determine my future. I remember telling everyone if I don't do well in AS, thats it. I will quit A-Levels and join ACCA or CAT. The vomitting lasted for 3 months plus.. until all of us decided to visit a specialist for endoscopy.
Result: Internal Bleeding in the stomach! The doctor also suspected that it is caused by the bacteria called Microbacter pylori. Main point is, the person who discovered this won a Nobel Prize and and and he is a Professor teaching in UWA!! (heh heh..*one day..one day.. its my turn*)shuddap do not comment!

2) Took my surprising results. All hard works paid off. It wasn't flying colours but at least it is good enough for all university applications. :) I was VERY HAPPY.


February:
1) Attended the first university interview in my life! Then continued with a few others.
-National University of Ireland
-Penang Medical College
-International Medical University
After all the interviews, father took the choice for me to change my preferred university from IMU to PMC, with a very valid reason that I accepted thankfully in the end.

2) First time experienced double-date Valentines Day! We all had fun. hee at least, I had lots of fun.


March:
What else??
1) THE 18TH BIRTHDAY!!! and OMG I can't believe(thanks to my lazyness) that I totally didn't blog a single word about the Birthday. I will post up some main pictures here then. It was beyond awesome and I am grateful that I have a bunch of lovely friends and the family who loves me most!

Mummy bought me a golden anklet which I totally didn't expected AT ALLLL..together with a pair of shoe. hehe

Just in case you don't know, daddy celebrates same day of birthday with me, and he got a dark pink polo tee from POLO with dark grey side linings. He looks so handsome with that shirt! :)



Back to the crazy o' bunch. Early in the morning, I need to CRACK MY HEAD to crack the code in order to know the location of my birthday celebration, and the present!

Everything started with "P". I will never forget "phenol" was one of it! hahaha

Everything started with P=Piau=Puzzle for my present.

Fantastic!

BIG BIG CREDITS TO BAMS. All of us had our wonderful birthday celebration for the year!

My birthday presents.

Not forgetting the GUESS wallet from Daniel! AWW I love it so much.



April:
1) It is always the anniversary when April comes into my mind. 19th April 2004, the day I laughed a lot until now for what you did! *bluek* This year, the celebration was much more EXPENSIVEE, heh heh. I took the effort to dress up! See how important is 19th April to me. but what can you say. It's 5th year this year! So I wanna enjoy a bit. keke and I rate the japanese food for the dinner, 11/10!! Sad to say, I forgotten the shop's name. LOL paiseh. All I remember was the japanese shop right opposite Jogoya. Good landmark!


Then things went slightly out of track and I can't rate that day -perfect- anymore.


May:
1) Life started to deviate from what I wanted it to be. Things are getting more and more ridiculous. Just when I was trying to make things better, it worsen! All I know was "I am stupid". I couldn't please anyone in the world especially my loved ones. I let my parent down.

2) Sat the blardee toughest maths paper in my entire life. I felt mentally and emotionally breakdown. It was my last maths paper and I totally didn't expect it to turn out this way. I rarely blank a single question in all my exam papers but I was forced to blank at least 6 sub question worth 20+ marks. (If I'm not mistaken the total is about 75?)

June:

1) Ended my Pre-University course, Cambridge A-Levels. Did not regret taking this course at all, overall I got into a course I am sure I wanted in the end.

2) Celebrated Mummy's Birthday. I know in the coming years there is only slight chance where I can cut a cake and give her a big kiss on her birthday, so the simple celebration was a MUST!

3) Visited Macau for the first time! Oh I love the big wide hotel room and the Portugese Eggtart! *sluurrrpp*


July:
1) First time working! In exact, first time working outside. Normally, I got dragged to work in dad's office during holiday only. Acted like a total noob during work, made such great effort promoting.

2) My family drove all the way to Phuket! With the help of Garmin (GPS). *HUGE THUMBS UP* Then, without changing driver, I drove all the way back from Bukit Kayu Hitam until I reach home. *great achievement in my life*


August:
1) Another month waiting for the day to come--the day A2 results was released. Owh luckily no more vomitting this time but I didn't sleep for the whole night. Woke up, checked, ultimately disappointed. Didn't expect it to be so bad and I started throwing away my ambition. Made a big fuss when dad is still giving me ways to get into medicine.

2) Changed course, and I insisted to put medicine aside and aim for podiatric medicine. Actually a few weeks before results was released, I started to change my mind that I want to do podiatric medicine instead of medicine. But I will just rely on the results. In the end, made up my mind and Podiatric Medicine here I come!! Started typing personal statement, first try got rejected by Dhassareth and I will never forget him for giving such a big help 'improving' the essay. Without him, I may not even get a reply in such a short time! Of course not forgetting my own effort. hehe. I was overwhelmed when I received the email saying I was accepted into Podiatric Medicine in University of Western Australia!! And there it goes, changing from medicine to podiatry and Hi,Lil Foot! for my daily life later on.

>>I am really glad now that I choosed Podiatric Medicine instead of Medicine. No regrets. I am really happy for myself! :)


September:
1) This was a sad month. Because why, it should be named Farewell Month.

Adelynn the monster left, and I celebrated her birthday for her in advance together with a green mirror.
Jia Yi the lame queen left, and we gave her a cup with the whole scouts gang picture printed on it, provided the cup is filled with hot water. Plus another yellow squared pillow was given.
Piau the great friend left, and I will miss him! :)

There were many people left too, both high school and college friends. Am I able to meet them again one day?

2) Visited ShenZhen & Hong Kong Disneyland! Then, had a 10 days stay with Jing the bestie in Hong Kong. Thanks a million! hehe

October:
1) The scoldings are getting worse. I desperately want my holiday. A holiday without worries and stress. A holiday where I can sleep all I want, WITHOUT SCOLDINGS.


November:
1) I can't think of anything else. November, was the breakup. Nothing much to say about it, but it was bad. Cried a million times but doesn't make any difference.

December:
1) HEH! I made it. Entered club for the first time in the age of 18. Not breaking any law. I am now glad for myself because I don't like the environment there. hee! :)

2) Received the "biggest" angpau in my life, from PorPor.

3)Great countdown on 31st Dec with Daniel! Watching fireworks on special occasions just feels so good. :)

Overall, I love 2009 and I hate 2009 equally. One thing I am sure of, this one year made me felt that I've grown up a lot, ready for the next stage of life. Buhbye the happy and sad year!

2010, HERE I COME!